wads in the world is happening?
everything is gng wrong
fcuK!
who can i tok to?
my parents?
NO~!they dun understand me;yet they thought they noes my in and outs...
my sister?
NO~!she is the reason and the cause that i will blog out this eentry...
friends?
NO~!not that i dun trust them all wad...
i just feel weird telling them my feeligns...
my diary?
AS IF~!yea...i did wirte out my feelings init...
but it didnt gif me advice...
teachers?
OH!PUH-LEASE~!not in a million years...how weird isit..
my sis...
i dunoe wads gng on lately with her...
she just gone crazy hurs?
she thought she understand me well enuf?
o.gawds.
no~
she pratically scold me everyday for this whole week...
yea...
cny oso...
sometimes i rather dun haf her as my sister...
or being an orphan...
o well.....
i cant chose...
she scolds me for chattign on the phone pratically omos everyday...
halo...
does she not conference with her friends?
and she conference longer okays...
and they laugh like hell...
and talk for so lo0ng...
yet...
when i talk she scolds me...
i feel liek scream at her sometimes...
to get out...
and she borrows stuff from me without putting back to the original palce
and when i borrow stuff from her she just tell my parents or shout at me...
halo...
i gto feelings too okays...
who the fucking hell ue thought ue are...
is totaly unfair...
ue fucking bitch...
ihate ue
fuckoffmylyfe...
ue asshole!
ue idiot...
ue freak.
i just hate ue to core...
ue taking o-level this year.../
so wad...
when i take PSLE wad the hell damm attitude wue gif me...
when i get my aggregate wad ue sae?
ue are oni jealous...
cus ue didnt expect i will get 243(with HMT),
ue oni sae that psle is not impt...
when we go sec school.
nobody will care abt it...
ue dare to sae that?
when ue went into westwood that time..
ue sae ue are the lowest in ur class...
and ue feel so awkward when ur classmates ask ue ur marks..
if ue get a better agg. will ue feel awkward?
no~!
ue this bitch..
think of wad ue had sae before ue shoot ur bloody words out from ur freaky mouth
ue are trying to get me into trouble and get into good books of mom&&dad.
then let me tell ue...
ue are succesing okays...
freak~
bitch~
ijusthateuesomuchthatnthcanstopthishatred!
my parent
espeacially my dad...
i hardly see him...
but when he come back..
the oni thing he told me is wad...
later ue fail ur common test then ue noe...
halo...
wad rite does he have to say me...
ue hardly noes me...
ue are just a stranger to me...
i oni see ue a 1 or 2 times one month...
ue dun understand me;and yet ue scold me...
had ue ever see me study?
no~
no~
No~
and ue oni noe how to scold me...
is that fair to me?
no~
and my mom...
hur~
ue are giving me too high expectations..
and when i fails to meet ur expectations ue just sae that i
didnt study...
did ue see how i study in school?
huh?
no~
ue thought i staying back in school...
is to play
no~
i see my friend play for tournament..
and i do study~
but ue dun believe me.
o well wad can i do?
nth~!
and i dun feel like coming back to this home...
this house dun look like one anymore...
is just like a hotel to me...
come bk and slp;and do hw...
my teachers;
msYAU>>i dunoe wad to say...
im so pissed off by wad ue did.
1st:
the cny decorations,
ue call aizhen;shi nan;javan&&me to do the deco...
yea...
we did...
and some boys did...
but wads ue did to the deco?
ue tore off?
ue sae is ugly...
puh-lease even is ugly;theres hard work and effort in it.
fuck her ass lahs...
how can she do that...
aizhen contributes $money$ okays!
and ue didnt even sae a word of good...
im so damm fucking pissed okays.
when we won the 1st for cny deco
i dun feel the joy and proudness in my heart...
cus i felt that that is not our hard work...
did ue spare a thoguth for my didi.yingkiat when ue otre off his hard work
that he spends hours of time doing the pasting of fish in to words...
ihateue~!
2ND>
that day alot of people was late,
for ur class cus we need to climb from 1st story to the 4th after
hoemecon...
and i was not the oni one..
theres still alot of ppl..
i didt hear ue calling me...
cus theres so many ppl luhhs~
and ue call until so unhappy...
then ask me why were we late...
i gave ue the ans...
and ue were like kp staring me...
unhappy then tell me...
ue no need to gif me those looks okays~
sometimes i dunoe...
now i noe...
last time i feel that people who cut their own wrist are stoopid...
but now i dun think so...
and i want to do it...
yes...
i do it...
but i use a scissors...
i need a penkinife...
and im going to do it...
i heack the peopl around me...
ue are the ones that force me to do that.
FUCK OFF MY LYFE!
